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09 October 2008 @ 09:13 am

9.13AM

Back home. Started back last night round one and got back about an hour ago.

Yeah, I was a little off about things being finished, but they sure as hell are now. For good this time, or I swear to god, I'm gonna kill Joel. I am not goin' all the way back over there to do this all over again. ~~Repeat performances like that get messy.~~

Guessing Dad's at work, Katie's at school... dunno where Mom is, but she wasn't here when I got in, so I've got the house to myself for a few hours. Works well enough.

~~Still, I don't know how long I can stay here. Before I've got to do something about this. Hell, I don't want to, but it's not like I've got a choice. Shouldn't even be typing this.~~

...interesting something Joel told me while I was talking to him about all this, what I think. Memores acti prudentes futuri. Just typing it so I won't forget it. No frigging kidding, though.

Tags: alone, home, hunting, joel's, obscure shit, travel, vita tua mors mea

location: home

mood:

awake

music: break down doors, default

7 scars mended | don't worry about me

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afalsealarm on October 9th, 2008 06:39 pm (UTC)

I don't get a spare minute to check on here for a few days, and this is what I come back to? Glad you're back, but what's up with you, these posts? Not adding up. Who's Joel, anyway? Checking the tags...what's hunting got to do with anything? Don't see how that could be helping someone unless the guy's got a serious over-population problem or something.

That other post... Wrong journal... Now's when you tell me you've got some pink number under your bed so I don't take back my word when you obviously aren't keeping to yours.

Do something about what? Dean, c'mon man. You're sorta scaring the shit out of me here.

'Mindful of what has been done, aware of what will be'?
Not that I'm expecting you to actually shed any light on any of this, but... No, not dealing with cryptic bastardness. You might get away with it with them, on the whole 'grown up, your business' thing, but as your little brother I'm entitled to stay just as nosy as I've ever been.

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onthefaultlines on October 9th, 2008 07:10 pm (UTC)

Joel's a friend, I was staying with him for a couple days. Like I said ~~repeatedly~~ no big deal. Doesn't have to add up to anybody but me, does it? It wasn't a thing. ~~Leave it.~~

~~I'm keeping my word. What the hell are you talking about?~~

~~Nothing.~~

Like I said, just something interesting Joel mentioned.
Pretty much gotta deal with it. Not much getting around that.

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afalsealarm on October 9th, 2008 07:41 pm (UTC)

Oh. Wow. Yeah. That clears it all up. Because, you know, I'm an idiot and that tenth time of typing out the same damn thing really made it all make sense there. Even though I already read the others more than once. No, there's no law, but it would be freaking nice, Dean. Yeah, that's going to happen.

What am I talking about? That whole 'keep me updated'? I'd say some things seem to have changed, or furthered, or something. Especially since you didn't just deny it's the one I think it is. Updated on you not what the hell you're doing, though I'd really like to know what that is too.

Let me guess the rest of that sentence. 'Nothing, but I've got a bridge I'd like to sell you.' Or maybe some oceanfront property somewhere in Arizona on the cheap? I think I'd put money up for one of those before I'd buy into that.

No, really? I didn't get that from when you said it. Thanks again for clearing it up. Really. There's gotta be some reason you find it interesting, Dean. Last I checked you weren't the type for random Latin. Speaking of which...
No, I don't. That's the beauty of it Dean. Short of ignoring me, of cutting off contact... You. Can't. Get. Rid. Of. Me. And even if you do those, you still can't, unless you plan on sabotaging the whole damn house, and I doubt that is going to go unnoticed. So you know what?

Stop with the fucking cryptic shit.

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onthefaultlines on October 9th, 2008 07:57 pm (UTC)

You don't get to know all my business, Sammy, that's not how it goes. Better give up on that delusion pretty damn quick. Yeah, well, I'll get back to you on it adding up when it actually does.

Nothing to update about. Like I said, Sam, it was a freaking non-issue. Nothing happened. I'm fine, just typed wrong.

Just means nothing, smartass.

Context. You haven't got it, so you don't get to assume shit. What now?
Is that a threat?

No.

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afalsealarm on October 9th, 2008 08:23 pm (UTC)

I think you're the one with delusions here, Dean. I'm not trying to know all of it but sorry if I'm not satisfied with a handful of nothing. Ah- So it doesn't even add up to you then? Or was that a slip, did you type something wrong again? There's a little button called 'backspace' you know.

Oh yeah, because nothing and non-issues get a chain of 'fuck's. I'm not buying this bullshit Dean. You need to get up to date on the actual definition of 'nothing', think the problem might be you're using a different one from the rest of the world. Here: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/nothing

No, it doesn't. If it was nothing, really, you'd let it be and let me just call whoever and be able to shrug it off whenever they said something to you. You don't want me to do that though.

Well fucking enlighten me then. What's the context? Cos I'm sure I can assume all I want, but I'd be more than happy too with the bonus clue of what the hell is going on. What now? I'll tell you what because apparently unlike you I'm actually willing to talk. The hell are you on about with the other bit of Latin, in your tag. 'Your life, My death'?
What the hell else do you think it could be? Yeah, it's a threat Dean, and I'll admit and don't think at this point I'm even going to think twice about carrying it out if I have to, not unless you can give me some damn good reasoning there. You don't seem to want to do that though, you're more focused on the just hiding everything and trying to get me to go away, hoping I'll give up eventually or some shit like that but guess what? I'm not going anywhere.

Yes.

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onthefaultlines on October 9th, 2008 08:39 pm (UTC)

I already told you what it's not. No reason to keep asking when you've got an answer - that being, no, I'm not telling you all the details. Deal with it. ~~Fuck.~~ I'm not totally clear on everything yet. But I'm getting there. ~~Put together enough to know what I can and can't say.~~

Something came up and I was pissed off, what do you want, a fucking log of everything I did while I was gone? Shit didn't go the way I wanted it to, I was planning on coming back and I didn't get to. Go fucking figure. I know what the freaking word means, Sammy.

It is just nothing. Ever occur to you I just don't want to deal with this bullshit?

It's nothing you'd get even if I tried to explain it, Sam, and I'm not going to do that. No matter what you say, so you might as well come to terms with that. It's none of your business.
You'd think you'd've figured out by now that threats don't really work on me, Sam.

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